As a result of a crazy life I have lead I have written a book, "The Day I Said 'I Do" and if you would like to learn more you can check out my web-site. After being molested by church members and trying to take my life by swallowing a bottle of pills I learned to take the middleman out of my relationship with God. I have learned that I don't need someone or a cult like group to micro manage my relationship with god and that has been life changing for me. I have never been one to complain about things including my challenging life. Because I have been to dark places in my life, I am able to connect to a group that otherwise goes left unnoticed. I feel blessed that I have such a large range of people I connect with.